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Friday, May 22, 2009
一笑置之 ![]() 当我选择把眼光放得更远更广时,心里总有一种说不瞭的情感,带有一丝丝的无奈,一点点的惆怅,因为没有办法所以得接受,惆怅里带有一点的不甘愿。我无法不介意,不在乎,无法不把它当着一回事,因为它已成为我过去的一份子。过去,一天一天得累积,久而久之会被每一天的事物所盖过。时间总是漫长的,而我只能在岁月流逝的当儿,试着慢慢忘记。 真的好累。。。那具隐藏自我,自我保护的面具好重,戴得我快喘不过来了。可能是因为戴得太久,我似乎失去了自我。我已经不认识自己了。因为戴了太久,我已不习惯让别人看透我的内心世界,对人对事都带有自卫,戒备之心。我的内心世界容不下其他人,我喜欢独自承受。虽然辛苦,我也不要身边爱我的人为我操心。我不伟大,我只想在我的能力范围里,对爱我的人付出那么一点因为我无法为它们做些什么。我也不知道,可是我已经慢慢偏离了他们期望的轨道,渐行渐远。我总是辜负他们所寄托在我身上的期望,让他们失望。他们虽然不说,但一切的一切,我已看在眼里。 我心里的心灯就快熄灭了,又要如何从新燃烧? 时间或许是疗伤的良药吧。再给我一些时间。我还在学习如何释怀,如何一笑置之,如何用宽阔的眼光,宽阔的心胸来容纳种种的好与坏,黑与白,是与非,真与假,喜与悲。即使这一刻失去自己要捉住的事物,我也必须告诉自己不要紧,世界不停转动,机会总会来。虽然很难税负自己,但为了爱我的人,我一定会坚持。说我没大志好了,我是为了他们而活。 没有捷径,只有努力。如今,只有先苦后甜。 只要心灯不灭,快乐就会重来。 Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Problems Friday, May 15, 2009
I think I rock HELL IS OVER! I'm going insane. !@#$%^&*()*&^%
I think I rock. Teehee. 1) I pwnz Physics MYE. (Wahahahaha) 2) I manage to survive after 5 hours of brain juice-squeezing Maths Paper. 3) I eat 1 big bowl of Udon, 3 bowls of Miso Soup, 2 Rolls of handroll, 10 plates of sushi. 4) I ransacked town and brought back tons of loots 5) I'm rich. Wahahaahaahh 6) I found a super cheap blazer. (PWNZX) 7) I can watch NC16 (lame) 8) I PWNZXZX PHYSICS. OMG. OH YEAAAAAAAAAAAA My physics had never pass before during major exam. Teehee. But I actually know how to do MYE 2009 Physics Paper 1 and 2. Omg. OMG. I think I rock. I ROCK \m/ I wanna kill some seller. I hope my jacket wont go missing. ): I am going to spend money to buy whatever I want. And nobody can stop me. Whahahaha. I'm sixteen and I'm rich. Hahahaha. No lah, I just got money as present from my dad. Teehee. Attractive amount of money. I am going to buy buy buy buy buy buy buy buy shop shop shop shop shop. Hahhahaha. Insanity is killing me. I am such a bitch ): But who cares. Teeheee. And oh no. And the pimples seem to parasite on my face. Wtf. Go away man. Best clique (v) Saturday, May 09, 2009
Perfect It's gonna be a short post. Hahaahahaha. Just bear with it lah. (Y) Like woah, time really flies like nobody business and hahaha I am sixteen. Not very excited about it and ya just not excited like last few years. I used to think that birthday is the most important to anyone on Earth. But not now, everyday is so special and so precious to me. Perhap it all changes after some unfortunate incident. I really learn how to cherish things and of course not taking things for granted cos you never know when and where things will just disappeared away from your hands. Nothing is forever except for love. Love the people around you. Love yourself. And of course, live to the fullest cos everyday that is spent with your loved one is so special, so memorable. It might just be some insignificant things but it is when you lose it, you will know the importance of it. Start to talk like a woman yeah. Hhahahaha. My mum wrote me a letter and it really reaches my heart and made me cry all the bad things out in my heart. Worried too. I hope everything will go well and fine. I really hope so. Please. I really hope nothing will happen. I had some bad days this week. Some disheartening and sad thing striked me. If you are sensitive, you will notice lah. Yeah, I am unhappy this week. Not because of exam. But some other things. I am a good pretender so I dont think anyone will notice. I am just good in pretending and hiding my emotion. I am not the usual mandy everyday. I am tired of faking up and putting on a mask to hide my feeling. But it all goes so natuarally. I am kinda used to it now. Sometimes I dont even know if I am happy or sad. Pathetice. Well, hope things will go fine. I wish all my friends and family will be healthy and happy. And I love you guys. Especially mum, dad, brother, huiwen, huimin, yuping, sery, kaiwen, khaiseng, farhan and lerchen for the wonderful day spent. Thanks for making me happy today. This will be the most perfect bday ever in my life. Hahahaha. Big girls dont cry. I will try man. Big girls need a complete change in wardrobe and dress sense and hairstyle and frangrance. Lololololololol. After MYE. Teehee. (Y) Lazy to post picture. Soon (: |