9:30 PM No matter what, I still love JVCB.
I LOVE JVCB!

Yesterday was great. We did well. We really did. We flew and soared like nobody's business. That was the best we played. Everybody was in the music. The soloists was good. I was so proud of them. I wanted to hug Jianing after she played her parts. She did it! I was so happy after the performance. I pinned the hope high. I believed everybody did. We stand a good chances, just to touch the four letters medal. Even Mr rasull told us that we had a chance of getting gold. Band directors from other bands were shocked at our tremendous improvement. Everyone was happy and excited to sit in the hall for the result. I hugged Atiqah for the jobs well done. So with the hope high up, we went into the hall for our result.

I held Jinyang and Huiwen's hand. We were holding hand, and feeling so excited about it. So the anouncement of result started. Other bands who obtained a silver medal were cheering so loudly. I cant imagine if we got the four letters medal.

" Band number 87,
Jurongville Secondary School ...."

I swear I was chanting. My head was down with my eyes shut tight. My fingers interlocked with Huiwen's and Jinyang's. My palm was sweating.

"Gold, gold, gold" I chanted.

And the cursed 'S' word spoiled everything.

Nobody clapped. Other band clapped for us. Our dream just shattered. I released my hand slowly from Huiwen's and Jinyang's. I put my spec into my blazer. I put my hands on my face. Tears just cant stop flowing. I felt Felyna and Jinyang's pat. I dont care. I just cried. I dont think we deserved a silver. We walked out the room, with unspeakable emotions. I hugged Vania and Atiqah. We cried with my head on each other's shoulder. Mr rasull was sad. I saw his face. He feel with us, he looked sad, very sad. The band was so down. I felt like punching Joel Chia and Faith Ang hrad on their face. Serious.

Nobody was talking in the bus. I was cursing a former bronze band who obtained a silver medal when playing a grade 3 piece this year deep down my heart. I feel like frying them. Everybody was sad. Some had their tears flowing when listening to the recording. I wanted to shout at the judges. And Alice Gan. I wanted to scream at her for her unlucky draw, for our turn after the Hwa Chong. Hwa chong is good, I admit. They are goddamn good. The piece they played was amazing. Ten times magician than Flying high. I swear I wanna pee when I heard them outside the stage. The horn sound as if they are triumphing the sky, celebrating their deserving victory. I got hooked on that piece.

We are okay with Hwa chong getting a GWH. They deserved it. In fact, I felt happy for them. I can understand their excitment after they know their result. They used to be silver band you see. But this time, they were really very good. I think the judge had found the maximium standard of Singapore secondary band. Bands after Hwa chong all got silver. Even RGS, NYG, Dunman High, Cedars' girl got silver. Do you get it? Do you get what I am trying to say? I mean we stand more chance to touch gold if we are not behind Hwa Chong.

We were just not lucky. And that former freaking bronze is so lucky. Bands playing that piece all get bronze and they freakingly get a silver. SYF is not fair. Competition is never fair. Do you know why JVCB is so sad? Cos we belive we can touch a gold. We believed we can do it. This is why JVCB is so down. We cried for 30 min outside the hall. Fine, you might think I am a sore loser or what. But I seriously think JVCB deserve more than silver. Well, it is not a time to push blame lah. Maybe because of some other factor? Argh, i still cant accept the fact that the former bronze band got the same medal as us. I cant accept the fact that JVCB is a silver band. Well, i will try to get over it. Soon. We need time.

So we made our way to school. I think anybody, ANYONE can read kour faces. Our eyes were red. When I stepped into the band room, I heard Zany's solo. I cried again. I dunno how many time I cried. Dont bother asking me. And when I made my way to the toilet, I overheard some news. News that made me boiled up and cried even harder. They broke the wrong news at the wrong time. Is such a wrong time. Why people wanna take things away from us? First the jugdes, now you! But I am glad that my banana had made a decision. And that decision wont change. It will never change. And here's Mr Thomas with his super gust of adrenaline. I seriously dunno what is he high-ing about. Wtf. Cant he feel the band's atmosphere? We are like so down.

"I am so happy! You guys get silver ! I drove into school and rushed all the way straight up!"

This is when I started crying again.

" Where's the band major ! "

and he went to shake vania's hand. Vania was crying like so hard. She covered her mouth with another hands of hers.

"Eh why so sad! Its good! You did the school proud."

Our VP was so happy for us. I really dont understand why. WHY! I wanted to box him in his face. Urgh.

BUT JVCB, I'M STILL VERY VERY VERY PROUD OF YOU! WE DID IT!

My emotion is so affected. I feel like crying when I heard the recording. I cried when I read Adila's blog. This must be the B period. It feels like yesterday. I really cant forget how we struggle to maintain this silver medal. This silver medal dont come easy. It's all hard work. We improved so much. People are convinced. People think we are a gold band standard. We think we are a gold band standard. And that's enough. We will believe, and continued to believe. And we will work even harder to convince more people. Thanks, people! Thanks for being sucha great banana. I love you all. I shall decidated a post next time, just for you people. Every single one of you who make JVCB so special and unique.

And here I am. Stepping down. Everything happened like a dream, so fast, so uncatchable. I used to tell myself, not to join band in my tertiary education. No matter what, band stop in secordary school. I am not going to join band anymore. But it changed. I am in love with band again. I fall in love with band again. I really love band. It gives me a sense of achievement when I played my running notes. It taught me alot of things. Band just conquered part of my life. I used to be looking forward to step down. But now, I want time to rewind. Rewind til before hongkong trip. I want things to happen again. No matter which band I get into in my tertiary studies, no band will replaced the place JVCB stand in my heart. I love you people. Now, I wanna cry again. My emotion is so not stable. I really love you people. It's from bottom of my heart. I really heart you people like tomato. Argh. Cant I dont step down? I am not ready for it. I dont care about Os lah. I dont want to step down. My eye hurt alot, and all swell up. Argh.

I LOVE YOU ALL PEOPLE!
You might think I am overly reacting. But let me tell you this, you cant never ever know how much the bananas love JVCB? Right, people? (beam)

No matter what, I still love you. I still believe. And JVCB will continued to stand strong, soar even higher. I love you baby. And I'm excited about the concert.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Alumni playing Machu Picchu. Mr Chia guest conductor. He prepared like 20 pieces for us. And no pop pieces! YAY. We shall show the former bronze band people we are gold standard. Let's see who own. Happyhappyhappyhappyhappy. I dunno whether is confirmed not. Now I published it to the public and I hope they feel the peer pressure. Hhaahahaha. Lame. I feel so good after blogging. (Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)

JVCB IS GWH STANDARD IN MANDY'S HEART. A.L.W.A.Y.S F.O.R.E.V.E.R