12:57 AM I am feeling the urge to blog. Now. 1.11am. Nice one. I dunno what's wrong with me today. I feel sad. I feel vexed. Is this those sickening hormone work kidding me? I really dunno.


Holiday is coming to the end. And I sucks. I haven finish my homework. I feel like a pathetic loser. I am so dead. Os is coming. I am left with barely 2 months for MT Os. And 8 months for the rest of the paper. I'm feeling the stress. I really got to buck up after this term. My chemistry and Amaths are deproving. D: I wanna cry. Why am I sucha letdown? I am really scared. I dislike the feeling of being overtaken. I loathe the feeling of losing. I feel like crying, serious. I cant find the motivation to study right now. I dont feel like touching those stinky book. I know this year is tough. But I got to hang on. Just few more months. Mandy Cheong, just few more months. And everything is over.


I don't think I can touch 14 for R5. I dont think I can even touch 18 for R5. I sucks. I cant believe in myself. I mean I dont see hope or light. ): I wanna cry. I wanna scream at somebody. I need somebody's shoulder to lean on. I need a listening ear to hear me rant out how life is unfair. I am tired. I feel like giving up. I realise how tough it is to hang on. I dunno how to pick myself up this time. I am sad. I feel like crying. At this point of time, who will console me? Where the hell could I find somebody to talk to? People tend to forget that I'm just not that strong. I am just an ordinary girl going through some bullshit GCE O level paper that thousands had already gone through in their sixteen. Life is a bitch, I swear.

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I guess I had calm down, cried enough. I always believe crying is always the best mental cure. Blogging help alot, thanks goodness. It helps by compressing my little problems into many many tiny paragraphs. Mandy Cheong, after crying this time you gonna pick yourself up. Okay? Tomorrow'll be a better day.


This should be my last entry, I believe. Dont look forward for any entry. But if you're lucky, you might just happened to see another posts. We shall see alright? So yeah if you happened to pass by, do make an effort to drop me a tag. I will try my best to reply. With love.