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Wednesday, March 25, 2009
花。累。了 .jpg) 山穷水尽疑无路，柳暗花明又一村。 想必明天会更好呢？ 茫然的我依旧相信明天。 我宁愿做个茫然人， 也不愿做个无望人 虽然今天的我做的没比别人好 可是明天的我一定比别人闪得更美更耀眼。 就让茫然的我茫然过今天， 明天的我从新站起 今天的我累了。Sunday, March 22, 2009
for one more day  I am feeling the urge to blog. Now. 1.11am. Nice one. I dunno what's wrong with me today. I feel sad. I feel vexed. Is this those sickening hormone work kidding me? I really dunno.Holiday is coming to the end. And I sucks. I haven finish my homework. I feel like a pathetic loser. I am so dead. Os is coming. I am left with barely 2 months for MT Os. And 8 months for the rest of the paper. I'm feeling the stress. I really got to buck up after this term. My chemistry and Amaths are deproving. D: I wanna cry. Why am I sucha letdown? I am really scared. I dislike the feeling of being overtaken. I loathe the feeling of losing. I feel like crying, serious. I cant find the motivation to study right now. I dont feel like touching those stinky book. I know this year is tough. But I got to hang on. Just few more months. Mandy Cheong, just few more months. And everything is over. I don't think I can touch 14 for R5. I dont think I can even touch 18 for R5. I sucks. I cant believe in myself. I mean I dont see hope or light. ): I wanna cry. I wanna scream at somebody. I need somebody's shoulder to lean on. I need a listening ear to hear me rant out how life is unfair. I am tired. I feel like giving up. I realise how tough it is to hang on. I dunno how to pick myself up this time. I am sad. I feel like crying. At this point of time, who will console me? Where the hell could I find somebody to talk to? People tend to forget that I'm just not that strong. I am just an ordinary girl going through some bullshit GCE O level paper that thousands had already gone through in their sixteen. Life is a bitch, I swear. - I guess I had calm down, cried enough. I always believe crying is always the best mental cure. Blogging help alot, thanks goodness. It helps by compressing my little problems into many many tiny paragraphs. Mandy Cheong, after crying this time you gonna pick yourself up. Okay? Tomorrow'll be a better day. This should be my last entry, I believe. Dont look forward for any entry. But if you're lucky, you might just happened to see another posts. We shall see alright? So yeah if you happened to pass by, do make an effort to drop me a tag. I will try my best to reply. With love. Thursday, March 19, 2009
my bananas are steaming. \m/  Okay, I want to blog. Hahahaha.I think I had the best camp 4days back. I dont ever wanna go home. I am proud of my band. I am proud of who we are. Even though, we might be suaku or lame or paiseh in front of others ah, but I will never never regret joining the band I swear, I will miss the band. I swear I will cry during the release of result, no matter how good/bad the result is. Cos I know we did our best. I still remember how pathetic we are last few months ago, when we cant even play the second page of Flying high. I cant forget how we struggle through the torture of the nerve-breaking running notes. I will never forget how much effort we put in into the piece to prove her wrong. I can never forget the dilema, when we are asked to choose between Eagle bend and Flying high. But I am glad that we chose Flying high by Rika Ishige as a choice piece. This is what it makes us different. JVCB, I'm proud of you. I love you all. Argh, I really forget what happen in the camp. All I know is that, all the combine sessions with Mr chia make me feel really great. Flying high make me feel like a plane. It left me breathless. I believe everybody feel so. I wanna combine like forever. Flying high took my breathe and make my hormone run like crazy. Mr Chia is the best conductor on Earth, he never fails to believe us and inspire to play better each and every time. And Mrs Chia, always with her fullest support. I love Zany's flutter. I love Samuel's sparks of running notes. I love Jianing's warm and comforting bassline for the solo. I love Kenneth's clean and clear stroke. I love Christine's saxo colour. Aiyah, I love everybody lah. I am proud of you. I doubt there's any such united and enthu people like us as a band. We even did homework. Hahahaha. We even analyse all Singapore band. This is why JVCB is so different/special from other CCAs in Jurongville. I am proud to be one of JVCBananas. Even though we might not sound great or what in Deyi, but I know we can on this saturday. I know we can touch a gold on the actual day. I know we can own Yuying. Do you believe?
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
i just wanna be a selfish and irresponsible girl  Mandy is so not gonna to blog (anymore)Holy crow! ): The earth just lose one talented(and not) online journalist. How sad. Cry people cry. I dunno what to blog anymore. I dont like to blog about daily life like what lesson i have, i got what period, and whatever shit. Like what the hell, who care what lesson you have in lesson? (Roll eye) I dont like to post my camwhore picture on my web. Eeeeeeyer, the feeling is like ownself-appreciate-ownself. So (insert emotion) Especially when friends get together and go net-surfing and you people ended up on your own web and then look at your act-cute/chio picture. Wtf. Friend friend okay lah. But you know, you only abit ....... What? I post this (ahem)camwhore pic of me to show off my new spec dey. Wtf. Other stupid girls also camwhore themselves to show off their new clothes and what they wear today what. Tsk. Hohohoho. My dad said I went slim after I got sick. Hahahah, my cousin said I went slim during CNY. (V)(V)(V) (Shhhh, GWT also say so) Cheh! No lah, seriously I am a big eater. I can eat the whole whale, trust me. Hmmmm, not really lah. I suffered during the genting trip because of my glutton-ness. I stuff myself with yummy cuisine and ended up like a loser, losing face. Cannot blame me what, genting's buffet is so fucking ex. And like wth, I threw up in my hotel room. Loser! But there's always another bigger loser. I.CANT.STAND.SMALL.EATER.THEY.ARE.THE.BIGGEST.LOSER.ON.THE.PLANET! Seriously lah. You want to be as thin as the bamboo and the first one to be blown away when hurricane strike. Hohoho, good luck to you then. You have just wasted your entire life, missing out the best thing in life. And I will just mock at you, naming you under my loser list. Bloody shit, eat man. It's good. Oh my god, it's march. Help! I'm scared. ): OKay, I wish study hard now. And I will be the winner in my life. Hoohohohoho. I just found my inspire to study. It's easy to say okay I'm going to study blah blah blah today but it is hard to really do it. You might ended up blogging like me. I am supposed to preparing myself for amaths test tmrr and tuiton. Whatever. shall do it after tuition. Geo-ad kill most of my brain cells. Fuck. Right now, I dont have any amibiton. I dun wanna be famous or rich. I just wanna travel around the world, enjoying freedom without any troubles and responsibilities. Yes, I'm selfish and irresponsible girl. See me as a loser for good, I dont care. I have big stuff to do. |
