24 more days to 2009, I dread.


The idea of 2009 coming in 34560 minutes already send me to pee in my pants. 34560 minutes dont seem long. You, doing your big business including wiping your backside need at least 10minutes. Unless you tell me you dont clean your backside. Back.


I am scared of 2009(holistic GCE Ordinary level papers).


Because 2009, I have to mug like super geek for the certificate. I want to finish the damn paper as soon as possible for god sake. Every teenager in Singapore have to cross this path. It is part of your future. One of the main reason of me fearing the paper is because I screw my sec3 work. I think I am a sucker. I haven touch book, I am feeling so guilty. My confidence feel like being crashed for whatever reasons. I can no longer be as positive as before. I feel like peeing in my pant now. For some reason, I feel relieved. Not trying to be supersticious or what but my deceased grandfather told me that I can enter a JC in some ways(ask me personally). What matters most is not about the can-go-JC part. It is that he actually believed that I can score well for L1R5. He believed that I can pursue my dream, making them reality. I feel closer to my dream, but somehow I am afraid. I am afraid to dream, sometimes I lose the drive in me.


This must stop. It is time to say goodbye to the stinky negative stuff.

Never give up. Change the thinking and the way of living. Be fearless in your drive and take immediate, massive, repeated action and will never give up until you can live your dream. Be the main actress of your life.

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